Mirror, Mirror on the Wall

I am nominating my number one best friend in the world. I haven’t known her the longest out of anyone but she’s known me the deepest. She’s precious to me because she’s always been there for me through everything, and she’s my number one reason to always keep fighting. No matter how far apart me we are, I know that she’s always there. Even when we had a big fight and I thought that was the end of us and worrying that I didn’t have a best friend anymore, she was still there, hoping that I was doing okay. She’s precious because she’s one of the most amazing people I know, with a big heart and so much love for her family and friends and anyone who meets her can’t help but love her. She’s precious because she’s lovely, and giving, and the funniest person I know, and because she’s an inspiration to me. When I was at my absolute lowest point, no matter how hard it was for her, and it was bloody hard sometimes, she was there, giving the best advice she knew how, doing her damnedest to make sure that I stuck around for one more day, then another one, then another one, reminding me that I still had things to stick around for. She deserves recognition and a special something because she’s my best friend, and she makes my life better and because I’m proud to call her my best friend and have her in my life.

recoveryofabrokenteen:

thinly:

fortiituude:

freakingthe-fuck-out:

a-lesbian-to-remember19:

kicker-of-ass:

relentlesscuriosity:

cardcaptorr:

psychotichorizons:

1. Razors are a pain in the ass to get out.
2. Don’t ever let something get to the point where you can’t control it.
3. Shaving will never be the same.
3. Cuts hurt way longer than just when you’re in the shower.
4. Sleeves move around, and they won’t always be covered.
5. The fabric from your jeans will make your skin feel like it’s burning alive.
6. One cut will never be enough.
7. Every line, mark, scrape you see turns into a trigger.
8. Blood smells really, really gross.
9. The scars will constantly remind you, even on the good days.
10. You’re not sure why it feels good, it just does.
11. ^^ Sometimes it doesn’t feel good at all and it will make you cry.
12. You’ll start to see yourself as disgusting.
13. Sometimes the blood won’t stop and you swear it’s your last time, but it never will be.
14. Bandaids, Neosporin, and razors cost a lot of money.
15. Sex becomes very awkward with the lights on.
16. Cuts itch.
17. Then people ask why you’re itching.
18. You’re too hot to wear that hoodie? Too bad.
19. You’ll throw away your razors and the next day feel like a psycho when you’re digging through the trash.
20. No matter how many excuses you make up for doing it that day, none of them will be valid. Ever.
21. People will think you do it for attention, so you’ll start to believe them.
22. You’ll want to stop, you just won’t know how.
23. It will tear your heart out when your best friend does it once.
24. Some places feel better to cut than others.
25. Skin doesn’t always grow back the way you want.
26. You’ll feel like a charity case.
27. Some people will treat you like you are one, too.
28. You’ll start to think more about your back up plan for if you start to bleed out rather than college.
29. You’ll get angry if you forgot your razors.
30. Your mom’s going to cry really hard when she finally sees them.

please don’t ever start cutting I 100% promise you you’ll regret it

the most accurate thing I think I’ve read

for real though. i try to keep things lighthearted here, but NEVER start cutting or hurting yourself in any way. it fucks up how you see so many things and makes you think of how else they can be used, so please, PLEASE talk to someone instead. if needed, I’ll be happy to listen and list alternatives.

Never ever start self harming. You are all beautiful and don’t deserve it xx I hate how much I relate to this post.

FYI, these scars last. They’re not just there when you’re 14 and want to die. They last even after you’re clean for a while. They’re there when you’re 16 and your mom is teaching you to drive and she looks over to check if your hands are on 10 and 2 and she sees your arm and chokes up. They’re there at 17 at your senior prom when you’re wearing your strapless dress and your date tries to put on your corsage. They’re there at 18 when you’re donating blood and the nurse asks to see your arms to check for yout veins. And they’re still their at 19 when you haven’t cut in quite a while and you’re at your job putting sauces back on the table and a customer asks “what’s that on your arm”. You think they’re referring to your tattoos. They’re not. 

this makes me want to throw up and is so unbelievably true. it never really goes away even after its gone.

and it’s soooo fun in summer when you thought your scars were fading well and the sun darkens them out again. please don’t hurt yourself. this post got me choked up. I wish I never ever did

And when you want to go get your nails done but you can’t without feeling so uncomfortable with the manicurist looking at the scars and asking what they are.

I first started because my friend was doing it and I was curious. She stopped, I didn’t, and now I have to look at them every day and try not to hate myself for doing it and not being able to stop. DON’T EVER EVER EVER EVER START.

(via delicate-destruction)

dollymyfolly:

I’m the type of person who holds on to ticket stubs and photos and presses flowers but never puts them into a scrapbook I just have them scattered everywhere which brilliantly illustrates how I’m a sentimental piece of shit who can’t put their life together

(via delicate-destruction)

when you over-hear a joke in someone else’s conversation and accidentally laugh out loud

(via trust)